Chapter 663
“It won’t …… be,” Fu Jingting shook his head.
In fact, he was not unaware that something was wrong with him psychologically.
But he did not think that his situation was something that a psychiatrist could see.
When Rongshu saw Fu Jingting say this, she immediately frowned unhappily, “How come it won’t? You haven’t even tried it, how do you know it won’t be okay?”
Fu Jingting closed his eyes, “My mother she …… regrets giving birth to me ……”
“What?” Rongshu froze for a moment, then looked at him in disbelief, “You say that your mother regrets having you?”
Fu Jingting was silent.
Rongshu shook her head, “How is that possible! It’s absolutely impossible! How do you know that your mother regrets giving birth to you? I’ve heard my grandmother say that your mother and son have a very good relationship and your mother is very gentle.”
So how could such a Fu mother regret giving birth to Fu Jingting.
But looking at Fu Jingting’s expression, it didn’t seem like she was telling a lie.
So what was going on here?
Fu Jingting still had his eyes closed and did not speak.
When Rongshu saw him like this, her heart became even more worried.
She lowered her head and moved closer to him, “Fu Jingting, can you tell me? If you don’t say anything, if you don’t try to come out, it will only make us worry about you more and make us feel more uneasy about you, do you really want to see me and my grandmother worrying about you every year? Don’t forget, Grandmother is very old.”
She hadn’t told him about the fact that his grandmother had pa*sed out.
He was like this now, and in telling him about his grandmother it would only add fuel to the fire.
Let’s wait until he was a little better.
Listening to Rong Shu’s words, Fu Jingting’s thin lips moved slightly, and in his heart he had to admit that being like this, he would indeed make those who cared about him worry.
Moreover, his grandmother was indeed very old.
Especially in these two years, grandmother’s health was getting worse by the day.
The doctor said that it was possible that grandmother was just a few years away.
“The night my mother committed suicide ……,” Fu Jingting opened his eyes and finally spoke.
Rongshu stared at him closely, “And then what?”
“That night, she drank a lot, I didn’t know why she drank so much, so I stayed with her, she got drunk in the back and hugged me and said a lot of things ……”
Fu Jingting looked at the ceiling, his eyes listless, “My mother, in addition to crying that Su Cheng was getting married, also told me that if she hadn’t been pregnant with me in the first place, she would have followed Su Cheng and left without hesitation, but because she was pregnant with me, she chose to stay.”
“This ……” Rong Shu’s expression changed slightly, “So, it’s because of these words of your mother that you think your mother regrets giving birth to you?”
Fu Jingting’s eyelashes fluttered, “At that time, I didn’t know who Su Cheng was, but I knew that my mother didn’t love my father, she didn’t want to marry him, but she was willing to stay with the Fu family for my sake, and was willing to continue her marriage with my father, and for that reason, I was secretly happy, until the next morning, I saw my mother’s corpse, and after that, I started a nightmare that lasted for more than ten years. In my dreams, I always dreamt of the way my mother looked when she killed herself, or the way my mother, covered in blood and choking me, questioned why I was dragging her down and why I had to come into her belly.”
Rongshu bit her lower lip and said hurriedly, “It’s a dream, it’s fake.”
“I know it’s fake, but the meaning my mother expressed is not fake.” Fu Jingting looked at her with a bleak gaze, “Because of these nightmares, I know that my arrival has prevented my mother from pursuing her own happiness, that my existence has tripped her up in leaving the Fu family, that I have killed my mother.”
At those words, Rong Shu’s heart was shocked and she instantly understood that his real psychological shadow was not that he had witnessed his mother’s suicide.
Rather, he felt that the culprit who caused his mother to commit suicide was him.
“It’s not like that!” Rong Shu immediately shook her head, “Fu Jingting, it’s not like that, you didn’t get your mother killed, and your mother didn’t think you were a drag, listen, what you think is all in your head, it’s all a nightmare you had, it’s not what your mother really meant, you’re her son, how could she regret having you, how could she think you were a drag? ”
In short in her place, even if she loved another man in her heart, she would not regret having another man’s child.
She thought that as a sensible woman, she should be aware that the child was innocent and should not take her own business and take it out on a child.
Listening to Rong Shu’s words, a bright light flashed under Fu Jingting’s eyes for a moment, but it quickly disappeared.
He shook his head slightly, “You’re not her, you don’t know what’s in her heart.”
“No, I know.” Rongshu gripped his hand tightly and nodded with certainty, “Fu Jingting, I believe very much that what I am saying is true, I have heard my grandmother say a lot of things about the relationship between you and your mother, your mother was very gentle and good to you, even though she did not love your father, but for you, she took her responsibility as a mother, you said she regretted giving birth to you, but I think that was just her If she really regretted it, she wouldn’t have said if, but she would have told you straight out that she regretted giving birth to you.”
Fu Jingting’s pupils twitched a few times.
If she regretted giving birth to you and thought that you were an obstacle to her pursuit of happiness, she would not have been so kind to you and would not have fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother. Forget those words and come out, okay?”
The corners of Fu Jingting’s mouth pulled out a bitter curve, “It’s been more than ten years, how can you say you can forget?”
“I know, but you always have to forget, you have to learn to look forward, don’t you?” Rongshu said, thinking of something, she got up and walked to the side, lifting up a bag on the floor.
Then she reached into the bag under Fu Jingting’s puzzled gaze and took out something from the bag.
It was a scarf, a black scarf.
Thinking of the scarf he had asked her to knit yesterday, Fu Jingting’s eyes widened slightly, “This is ……”
“This is the scarf you asked me to knit, I’ve already knitted it, I stayed up all night yesterday.” Rongshu shook out the scarf, then gave it to him to hang around his neck, “Not bad, it’s really nice.”
Originally, she had planned to give him this scarf on his birthday.
But thinking that he was in a very different mood today, she brought this over with her.
Just thought, in case it could come in handy, to calm him down or something.
Fu Jingting raised his hand and touched the scarf around his neck, it was soft and had a faint fragrance, the scent of her body.
Fu Jingting couldn’t help but hold the scarf tighter, burying his head into it.
When Rongshu saw him like this, she said, “This was originally a birthday present for you, but now I’ve given it to you in advance, so I’ll give you something else when it’s your birthday.”
“That’s fine.” Fu Jingting fingered the scarf and looked at her with a rare look.
Rongshu poured another cup of hot water, “Do you want some?”
Fu Jingting shook his head, “No.”
“No, you have to drink, listen to how your throat has turned out?” Rongshu frowned.
If it weren’t for the alcohol in his stomach, she would have brewed honey water directly for him, just to let his voice recover sooner.
Chapter 664
Looking at Rong Shu’s serious, non-negotiable look, Fu Jingting knew that he could not do without drinking.
He raised his hand and rubbed his temples, then sat up with his body propped up, took the gla*s of water, and then took a few sips under Rong Shu’s gaze.
Only then was Rongshu satisfied and withdrew her gaze, not staring at him like a prisoner anymore.
After drinking the water, Fu Jingting put the gla*s aside and shook his drowsy, heavy head.
Seeing this, Rongshu asked, “Headache?”
Fu Jingting gave a hint.
Rongshu pursed her lips, “You deserved it, who let you drink so much wine, don’t want to die?”
Fu Jingting lowered his head, knowing that he was in the wrong, and didn’t say anything.
The expression on her face softened, “Forget it, don’t drink like that in the future, you scared me once and that’s enough, I don’t want to be on edge every year.”
Fu Jingting looked at her, “I’m sorry ……”
“You don’t have to apologize either, after all you didn’t do anything wrong.” I understand that you would choose this way when it comes to this kind of thing, but I also hope that you will think about it as soon as possible, don’t forget, I just said that you are not the culprit of your mother’s suicide, so you should not deny yourself, if you deny yourself, then who will affirm you?”
Fu Jingting’s eyes flickered slightly, as if he was thinking about her words.
Rongshu raised her hand and touched his forehead, then explained at his uncomprehending look, “It’s alright, I’ll see if you have a fever or something, I drank so much wine and didn’t rest all night, and the heating wasn’t on, I was afraid you’d catch a cold, but luckily, you didn’t catch a cold.”
She put her hand down and asked, “Do you want to sleep a little longer?”
Fu Jingting was so weak and dizzy at the moment that he couldn’t get off the ground.
He wanted to rest, but was afraid that she would leave after he rested, so he shook his head, “No, I’m not sleepy.”
“You’re not sleepy yet?” Rongshu said as she looked at him with little energy and rolled her eyes.
Fu Jingting’s thin lips twitched and he was just about to say something when his stomach suddenly cooed.
He looked down at his stomach, his eyes blinking blankly, “It’s growling?”
Hearing this from him, Rong Shu burst into tears, “What it screamed, it’s you who’s hungry.”
Let’s not talk about whether he had eaten last night or not, let’s just say that at this moment, it was almost noon, not to mention him, she was also a bit hungry.
“Hungry?” A trace of confusion flashed across Fu Jingting’s eyes, as if he didn’t quite understand what hunger was.
When Rongshu saw this look on his face, her eyes couldn’t help but twitch a little.
Why was this acting like a fool?
It seemed that he had drunk too much and the alcohol had gotten to him, making his brain confused at the moment.
That was why he looked silly, not his usual shrewd appearance.
But he’s cute like that at times, and it’s a rare sight to see.
I didn’t expect him to look like this when he’d had too much to drink but hadn’t pa*sed out completely drunk.
Helplessly shaking her head, Rong Shu pressed her hands on the man’s shoulders and pressed him back onto the sofa, “Alright, you lie here obediently, I’ll go to the kitchen and see if there are any ingredients to make you something to eat.”
This is the only way to drink, how can you do without something in your stomach.
It’s strange if you don’t get sick.
Fu Jingting obediently lay back down on the sofa, blinking and staring at Rong Shu, not saying anything.
Rongshu took her hand off his shoulder, then arranged the scarf around his neck and covered him with a blanket before she got up and prepared to go out.
But just as she took a step, her hand was pulled by the man on the sofa.
Rongshu stopped and twisted her head to look at the man, “What’s wrong?”
“Are you going to leave?” Fu Jingting looked at her and asked instead of answering.
Rongshu tilted her head, “Where am I going?”
“Leave.” Fu Jingting returned two words.
Rongshu was instantly amused, “When did I say I was leaving?”
“You didn’t say you were leaving, but you’re leaving now.” Fu Jingting pursed his lips and said in a hoarse voice, the aggression in his tone revealed in no uncertain terms, sounding quite a bit like a little pitiful abandoned.
Seeing this, Rong Shu patted the back of his hand and patiently explained, “I didn’t leave, I went out to get you something to eat.”
“I don’t believe you.” Fu Jingting’s thin lips pursed even tighter, “You’re lying to me, you must have gone out and left, just like my mother, she said she would take me out for dinner the next day, but the next day she was gone.”
Hearing this, Rong Shu was stunned for a moment, then sighed, “I’m not lying to you, I’m really not leaving, I’m really just going out to get you something to eat, I’ll be back soon, don’t worry, I’ll do what I say, how about I swear I promise?”
She held up three fingers and made a promise, “I’ll get you something to eat, come back immediately and appear in front of your eyes, if I don’t do that, I’ll be punished for keeping watch over you every day for the next while?”
Fu Jingting blinked his eyes, “Really?”
“Really!” Rongshu nodded her head seriously.
Fu Jingting stared at her, as if he was thinking about whether she was trustworthy or not.
After a while, he slowly released his grip on her hand and looked at her, “Okay, you go, but you have to come back quickly, I’ll be waiting for you here.”
“Yes, I’ll be back soon.” Rongshu nodded her head heavily.
She understood that the drunken and confused man was back to the way he was when he was about ten years old.
It was also true, after all, he was only that old when his mother committed suicide.
So it wasn’t surprising that after today’s drunkenness, his intelligence or whatever went back to about ten years old.
It was just that he hadn’t expected to be so cute at around ten years old.
Rongshu resisted the urge to pinch Fu Jingting’s face, and then walked out of the study under Fu Jingting’s momentary gaze.
She went to the kitchen and opened the fridge, expecting it to be empty, with nothing in it, after all, Fu Jingting looked like a man who could not possibly cook, and did not know how to cook.
But surprisingly, the fridge was actually stuffed with ingredients, and they were all quite fresh.
This was an eye-opening experience for Rong Shu, who couldn’t help but glance in the direction of the study.
No way!
He could cook?
Rongshu took out a handful of vegetables and looked at them, but she couldn’t imagine Fu Jingting cooking at all.
After all, he was a mess when he helped out at Repulse Bay before, and he still cooked.
Furthermore, as the head of the Fu family and chairman of the Fu Group, he was already so busy in himself, how could he have time to cook?
So all these ingredients must have been prepared by a*sistant Zhang, who then had the maids come here to cook for Fu Jingting.
Without thinking too much, Rong Shu put the vegetables in the sink and took a small piece of lean meat from the fridge to make a small rice porridge with vegetables and lean meat.
Fu Jingting had drunk too much wine and it would not be appropriate to eat anything else, so it would be better to eat some millet congee first, which would not only relieve the wine but also nourish the stomach.
When Rongshu was busy, it took her half an hour.
She served two bowls of congee and put them on a tray, then carried the tray towards the study.
She didn’t know if he was asleep now.
The door to the study was open, having been left open when she left, so Rongshu didn’t need to open the door again, she could just go in.
She thought Fu Jingting might be asleep, but to her surprise, he was not asleep at all, staring at the ceiling with both eyes open, as if he was in a daze.
Rongshu bent down and put the tray down.
When Fu Jingting heard the movement, his eyes moved slightly, finally withdrawing his gaze from the ceiling and looking at the woman at the side, revealing a look of surprise, “You’re back?”