Fu Jingting’s eyes widened when he heard Rong Shu’s words, then he turned around violently.
Although his eyes were still crimson, his pupils were trembling.
He was in excitement, in ecstasy.
Because of what Rong Shu had said!
He thought that she was lamenting why he didn’t continue to be Su Cheng’s stand-in and not change back to the gentle Fu Jingting of the past.
For this reason, a surge of anger rose up in his heart, wanting to ask her, did she really like the past him that much?
If the past him was really just a character that his mother had simply cultivated, not cultivated according to anyone, then although he would still be a little upset in his heart if she liked the past him, he would not be angry.
For that too was the real him.
But on the contrary, the past him was cultivated according to Su Cheng, so if she still missed it, how would he be able to bear it?
It would be as if, never having loved him, she had loved only an illusory character.
But fortunately, her later words completely calmed his anger.
It turned out that what she loved was not an illusory character, but the real him.
Otherwise, why would she say that she was now glad that he had not changed back to his old self?
Because she knew very well that he was not Su Cheng’s double, he was Fu Jingting, and he should have his own character instead of being tainted with someone else’s character.
So she congratulated him, for being himself!
The ecstasy and excitement in his heart could no longer be suppressed, Fu Jingting took three steps forward and then hugged Rong Shu fiercely in his arms, so tightly that it was as if he wanted to melt the person into his own body.
“Rongshu, Rongshu, Rongshu!” Fu Jingting leaned into Rongshu’s ear and kept shouting her name.
Each cry, so heavy, the emotion in it, was just as heavy as his tone.
Rongshu looked at the man who was so agitated, and knew why he was agitated.
It was because of her words.
She knew exactly what effect her words would have on the man.
The man would subconsciously veto his own existence when he knew he was a double that his mother could cultivate, wondering if he should not have come into the world.
He comes into the world and cannot be his true self, but only a stand-in for someone else.
So he would feel disgusted with himself, repelled.
And her words are an acknowledgement of him, a way of telling him that his existence has meaning, that he is not a stand-in for anyone.
He was him, he was Fu Jingting.
So naturally Fu Jingting would get excited and would hug her to show his happy and joyful feelings at the moment.
“Alright.” Rongshu smiled and patted Fu Jingting’s back, softly saying “Let go of me first, your hug is too tight, I can’t breathe.”
Fu Jingting loosened his grip a little, but did not let go of her completely, still holding her.
At this moment, he could not release her, because only by holding her could he be sure that what he had just heard was not a lie.
Rongshu felt the attachment coming from Fu Jingting’s body, and her heart was helpless and amused.
A man who was always independent and cold would actually cling to her like a child at this moment, the contrast was indeed amusing.
If he wanted to hold her like this, let him do so.
Rongshu also stopped letting go of the man and let him hold her firmly, then continued to pat his back and said “Don’t worry, no matter what, you have me with you, and grandmother, and Wang Shuqin and Fu Jinglin, we all know that you are you, not a substitute for anyone else.”
Although she did not want to mention Wang Shuqin.
But now, in order to appease the man, she could only hold back her aversion to Wang Shuqin and mention her name.
Fu Jingting buried his head deep in the nest of Rong Shu’s neck and didn’t say anything, just gave a muffled sound to show that he had heard everything and had taken her words to heart.
So the back side of Rong Shu also did not say anything else, the two people, just quietly embraced.
Only when Rong Shu’s mobile phone rang did Fu Jingting reluctantly let her go.
She took out her phone and looked at it, smiling a little when she saw the caller ID, “It’s auntie mother, probably here to ask what you like to eat so she can prepare dinner tonight.”
Fu Jingting glanced at the caller ID, his original negative emotions were much better, “You can answer it, I’ll go to the study first.”
He still had to calm down a bit.
Although she had said so much, it had soothed his heart a little.
But there was something else, too, that he needed to think through on his own.
After all, that was his mother, and what his mother had done to him could only be digested by him, the son, on his own.
Rongshu was also aware of this, so when she heard him say that he should go back to his study, she did not object and nodded her head in agreement.
But she was sure that after the enlightenment she had just given him, he would come out of it quickly.
So she was also relieved that he was keeping himself to himself alone.
“Go on, I’ll call you when it’s time for lunch.” Rongshu looked at Fu Jingting and said.
Fu Jingting nodded slightly, turned around again, and headed for the study.
For her part, Rong Shu saw him go in before calling Madam Lu back.
When she had just watched him, Madam Lu had hung up the phone because she had been late in answering it.
Now she had to take the initiative to dial it.
In the study, after closing the door to the study, Fu Jingting stood with his back against the door, slightly closing his eyes and raising his hand to pinch the bridge of his nose, his expression full of exhaustion.
Physically, mentally.
He had always believed that although he was the child his mother had used in exchange for his freedom before he was born, she loved him, and her feelings for him were pure and unadulterated by anything else.
But now he realised just how wrong he had been.
His mother loved him, but this love, it was not pure, at least he was nowhere near the position Su Cheng held in his mother’s heart.
His mother could have raised herself to be like Su Cheng for Su Cheng’s sake. In her heart, as long as she could comfort the pain of not being able to see her lover, it didn’t matter at all whether her son had his own character or not!
Thanks to him, in order to make his mother happy, in order to keep her from being disappointed, he tried to make himself gentle even though he clearly did not like the look of gentleness.
Just because his mother liked it.
Because he knew that his mother was married to his father and was not happy at all in the Fu family, so he wanted her to be happy and preferred to turn himself into something he didn’t like.
But in the end, it was all a lie, all a lie!
Fu Jingting lowered his head, the two hands at his side clenched tightly together, his arms trembling slightly from too much force, the bruises on the backs of his hands bulging, the aura around him terribly cold.
He had no doubt in Rong Shu’s words, and even believed them immediately.
In the past, he had originally had the feeling that his mother was looking at others through him, but he had just never been able to confirm it, thinking that he had been mistaken.
Now as soon as Rong Shu said that he used to be almost identical to Su Cheng’s character, he understood that he had not misread or felt wrong.
It was through him that his mother was looking at others, for he was the stand-in for Su Cheng that his mother had specially trained.
A stand-in!
What an ironic word.
He, Fu Jingting, the head of the Fu family, had actually become a stand-in for one person one day.
That person, might even be his father’s enemy!
He could not forgive his mother for what she had done.
He would still respect her, but he would never love her again!
No one could accept that they were a stand-in for another person.
Even less could he, Fu Jingting!
His mother had used him as a stand-in, not fully treating him as a son, not to mention loving him wholeheartedly.
That was fine, and he didn’t care anymore.
He had people who loved him now, Little Leaf, and his grandmother, and they all loved him.
Once Little Leaf knew that the man he was in the past was nurtured according to someone else, she could immediately forget the man of the past who had left her with deep memories and accept the newborn him now.
This affection is enough for him to remember for the rest of his life!